By: Deborah Lovett
Stinkin’ thinkin’ is what Joyce Meyers refers to it as. That is when you are thinking about things that steal the joy from those who love you, listen to the lies of the enemy of your own soul saying you are ruined and unloved, and things that destroy your life. So how can you be finding God when you are thinking about suicide?
If you can find a Bible you can find God. If you can find a phone and call the suicide hotline, you can find someone who wants to talk to you about your problems, which could be God’s intervention.
You see, in May 2008 my sister took her own life because she forgot she was loved by so many. She listened to the lies of the enemy that reminded her she had lost everything: her children, her husband, her home, her job, and her reputation over and over. That kind of stinkin’ thinkin’ can make you crazy. She had no idea of the aftershocks that would occur after she died. If she could have known how much we were to suffer because of losing her, I know she would never had wanted to hurt us that much. It has been like a tsunami whose waves of grief never end.
I don’t know why my sister made the horrible decision to give up, but I do know that God tried to get to her to stay by sending someone that offered to take her to church the same day. The lady said, “I knocked and she never answered.” My sister chose not to answer the door. You see there is always a choice. If you are thinking about trying to take your own life, remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem that the devil wants you to believe is a permanent problem with no solution, which is actually a lie from the pit of hell. Yes, you may have problems, but believe me my God is in the miracle making business and the worst situations are not even a challenge for Him. Take Jesus for example: they spit on him, whipped him, crucified him, and it looked absolutely hopeless. Yet three days later God raised him from the dead. I know, I know, you are thinking but that was JESUS. Well, listen up: God does not play favorites. If you will give God three days of life, (we have been commanded not to murder) just three sunrises, I believe He will intervene in your life someway, somehow. All you need to do is listen, submit to His voice, and open the door when He knocks or sends someone to your door.
You can also choose to not replay the video of darkness in your head over and over. As hard as it is to believe, you can choose to restart your life and begin to think about how God wants to actually bless you. Not only does He want to bless you, He has blessings waiting on you! You can begin by saying the name of Jesus, because the Word of God says there is POWER in the name of Jesus.
So if you are thinking about suicide, you can be finding God, life, blessing, and a new life instead if you will only believe and have the faith of a mustard seed.
I don’t know you, but I want you to know you are not alone. God is with you and I love you even though I have never met you. I really do! You see love is not based on what you do or don’t do, it is based on the command to love your neighbors just as Jesus loved us. I am begging you not to hurt those you love, or yourself. Let the sun come up another day. Reach out, call someone, open a Bible, go to church, call your doctor, go to the hospital, do anything BUT stinkin’ thinkin’. The devil has taken enough from you already, don’t give him the satisfaction of your life too. God wants you to live and He has a purpose and plan for it. Just believe.
See here on video the Kellie Borden story. She had real problems and contemplated suicide, but Jesus Christ changed her life.
by Deborah Lovett. (www.DeborahLovett.com) Deborah is an International Speaker for Women’s Events, Retreats, and Conferences and the author of Gushing Springs, a Bible Study on the “Woman at the Well.”